Dear Tyler,

      Hey baby Tyler. You look so cute, so innocent, so pure. That's all going to change. Even as a baby you're going to lose your innocence shoved into arguments between your parents that's going to eat you up inside. You're going to be sad and I'm sorry to say but it doesn't get better. I'm 16 and life is still hell. By the time you're around five or six you'll soon realize that people around you are dangerous. Tyler you're going to get molested but you won't even remember. You won't remember till ten years later when you watch something with rape and it'll haunt you. Your mind literally saved your childhood but it's gonna be ruined in your teens. By the time you're thirteen you'll have to go through the worst break up of your life. Not between you and a person but between your dad and your Mandy. It's gonna make you feel like killing yourself everyday. You're gonna hear the most traumatic thing of your life. You're gonna the sounds of slapping, screaming, throwing, shattering and everything above. It's gonna be the most traumatizing thing you're gonna go through. Tyler you're gonna be so sad, life is gonna feel pointless but you're gonna get through it I swear to god. The next three years of your life are gonna feel like the most hell anyone could ever experience. You're gonna pull that razor out of your drawer and the scars are gonna be countless. You're  not gonna even feel pain anymore you're gonna see the blood but nothing. This helps when you get a eating disorder and you don't eat for days on end. You're gonna become super frail and tired but with the depression you're already feeling that. You're gonna get into shows but that's not gonna help because you learn you can't trust those people. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry baby tyler but you're not even gonna have a dad for awhile. He's gonna become the enemy. You're gonna move in with your mom but just two months later you're gonna be in a mental hospital high on prozac. That leads us to the present. You still feel tired, pointless, depressed, struggling. you're gonna feel alone and want to be alone. You're gonna be lost baby ty. Lost and feel like no one wants to find you. Future Tyler will be found, I will try, to make it past 18 but please know ty YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU WILL BE FOUND, YOU WILL BREAK OUT OF THE DARKNESS! I love ty, don't forget that. I love you.