REASONS

By

Tyler Cahill

To my dear future lover, You’re beautiful.

I just want to say i’m sorry for

Everything i’ll probably put you through

But it’s all just because i’m sad and i haven’t

Been shown love like so many others have

I have no concept of what it’s like

What it feels like to shown

Compassion and caring.

All i’ve known my life

Are the same white walls of my sadness.

Stuck in what feels like the same place has

Given me a lot of time to think about what

My life in the future holds.

I sometimes can’t see my future and i

Think i’ll probably end up offing myself before I hit

twenty -Years old.

Please know that I must care for you

And it’s not you why i’m sad,

It’s my own messed up head turning me against

Myself and making me the bad person

In every situation

I’m sorry i’m so insecure with my body

And everything i do

I’m sorry that i wear long sleeves to hide

The scars i’ve added to my self over the years

And that every time i’m shirtless in

Front you, you see my dark past.

I’m sorry that every time you look into my eyes

You see sadness and pain

I hope someday you see the happiness

That are stored in them and my crystal

Blue eyes capture you and make you

Happy too.

Please just hold me and care for me

I just want your love and

You’re beautiful personality

Give me your hand because just knowing

You’re there makes me happy

And comfortable. Please just protect

me from myself

Please be my reason to stay.